Fighting Sleep?

Damn it. Is it the old age syndrome or what im having these past few weeks? I've always been waking up in the middle of the night, go to the loo and back to bed! Most incredible consequence is, feeling more tired than ever in the day.

And more concealers in the day too as if in going for war. War with myself. Cant sleep early at night but waking up in the wee hours of the morning and sleeping back? Oh dear.

Speaking of old age, my back sores if i sit too long!! Damn nenek ever. And im just like what. 21! Well, this sucks when i reach my 20s. But im gonna learn to love myself even more!

I have to.

Poor Baby

My fatty was and is sick sine 3 days ago. And just today, also my first time driving the monster truck out of bukit beruang, we brought her to the vet.

She's so fat that even people thinks that she is pregnant. Lol. Self-control method of eating doesnt really help much i guess? Well, she's better as of now. She likes the breeze when she was in the car, which of course attracted a lot of attention of other drivers and passengers. No biggie. We just dont wanna dirty the interior of the car.

At 4 years old, this fatty of mine will begin taking her yearly jabs. Ooops. So far, she was doing fine until lately. Purging and pooping blood. But hopefully all is well by monday.

And yes, we call her many pet names though her name is nestum. Puppy la, fatty, baby, 'stum, gemuk etc.

Your Love

just close your eyes and listen to this. perfect for my friday afternoon. makes me feel so thankful that the lord accepts us as we are. he's healing my heart. one heartbeat at a time.

his love is always so much better than life.

can't wait to dance for him this november (if i am able to). 

My Asian Eyes

This picture got me attention in church! Friends teased me of the chinese eyes i have. Damn eyes!! "One line only!" Haha well, im proud of what i have. :D One did an impersonation of my eyes while walking. Awesome friends that made me laugh la. Another was pretending to search for my eyes.

Well, looking at the positive side, life can be good!

I guess i have to take pictures like this then. Soooo unnatural and scary!

Imagine how would my convo pic be. Hahaha the chansellor will get a heart attack and might die on the spot. What more, walking with wide eyes open.

The Broken Heartbeat

was so screwed up with things last month until, i was so confident that my passport's gonna expire this november 2012! i even went to the immigration office and ALMOST did a new one. fml rm300 can be gone in a split second baby.

went to the counter and the officer asked if i am going to study abroad. was so confused, i said, no. im going to singapore. damn it. i even went to do a new passport picture! i should punch myself in the face. filled in the form. and waited for 10 minutes.

at the counter inside the office, the officer asked me the same thing! studying abroad? i said, no. im going for a holiday in singapore. and then... miss.... your passport expiring next year, you know? you sure you wanna do a new one? GASP! next year? i thought it was nov 2012! *self punch 20394823956925* sooo you want to cancel this transaction or continue doing a new one?

of course cancel lah! dumb ass me.

i still have that granny syndrome somewhere in my head.

Hello, October

And i'm left with 2 more months of dealing with books, pens, papers etc.

I'll make all this shit im going through from shitty to awesome! In fact, it makes me happy to know the result though. (Just like my hair :P) What you've put so much effort in, you just cannot wait for the results. Yes, we shall make it to december!

But there's one thing that i cannot do. Remembering names. Aiyo. They can remember my name but i cant even remember theirs. D: sufferrrr. How to enter into the working world? *punches self*

But hard times for me are making me to be stronger. What doesnt kill you really makes you stronger.

I'm coming to the light. Wait for meeee!

Oh Happy Day

Whole morning spent with my dear friend in old town eating, drinking, typing, laughing and talking felt so good! In fact, we killed 2 birds with one stone. Assignment and project done!

Who would've thought huh? A burden lifted till next week!

Anyway, if you people havent watch Always You by yomyomf in youtube, you should! I shed some tears while watching the series. Waiting for motherlover!! Fun fun!

September is ending. Quickly come, december! Program evaluation is already done! Yipeeeee!

On My Way

to greatness!

going to bring my assignments to an end in order to welcome dr jana's! i can tell her by then, "bring it on, baby!" i know we can mess with dr. :p

headphones up. assignments facing me. christian music are onnnn. speed typing. what a joy to do assignment.

now im taking a break.

just wanting to share something that motivated me so much. this was written by a 90 year old.
                                                          
1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short not to enjoy it.
4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and family will.
5. Don’t buy stuff you don’t need.
6. You don’t have to win every argument. Stay true to yourself.
7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.
8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for things that matter.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.
12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye… But don’t worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful.  Clutter weighs you down in many ways.
18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It’s never too late to be happy.  But it’s all up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Overprepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words, ‘In five years, will this matter?’
27. Always choose Life.
28. Forgive but don’t forget.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give Time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.
35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’dgrab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. Accept what you already have, not what you think you need.
42. The best is yet to come…
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

                                                          

when i've finished reading, i felt sooo comforted and relieved. my life is not fair but it's still good. i thank god for that. i thank god for the good and bad things that have happened to me. ahhh! and im eccentric! i LOVE purple and i WEAR purple! :D all the 45 points are meaningful. 

speaking of meaningful, i'll have a great time exploring the bible soon! passion podcast are waiting for me. greatness is on the way. must remember jubilee jubilee. don't keep things that are not yours to hold. instead, give it to God and let Him handle. im learning. yesterday's sermon striked me already. x.x 

exciting things will happen in october for me! 

Functional shopping.

Weekend shopping. Most greatest shop i've ever done - find organizers! All thanks to pinterest. Why didnt I thought of it long ago??? But now, i could wake up to my babies and just smile at them.

So what i've got are just ice cube trays and s-hooks. Effortless and easy, just do the transfer!

Have a great Sunday! *runs to church!*

Ps. Breaking hearts doesnt make you a man. Keeping one, knowing that its fragile DOES make you a man.

Sit Staring

whole day, alone at home, i've been spending my time with this marketing plan. its so dreadfullllll. D: what more, international management assignment. dear dr bcs, if you ever stumble upon this, can i just write, "i have never thought of making my business go international. ever. no modal." hahaha i will die. he will make my graduation to not happen for me!

and best of all, im banee, girl version of bane. my voice! its so struck down to the ground. it has to try to swim up and that's what we call, greatness. emotionally, physically and mentally. i guess it's life for me. it can be unfair. it can be fair. depending on how we just look at life.

(writing this is much better than marketing planning!!)

however, on the other hand, i've been on pinterest!

its so addictive and useful! this is my 'recess' from my marketing planning assignment. :D guilty but happy! seeing cute things and ideas lifts up my mood from getting all down and sick.

ps. paloma faith is my current music favourite! :D
pps. i think i've made my parents tired from listening to pink's blow me. oops.