Achievement Unlocked!

after sooooo long, now i have the time to update. i'm done with my studies on last thursday. damn great. why? last paper was moral. so now reminisce back to my first few days at college and to where i last stopped. it'll be a loooong post since i'm taking a break today from badminton. i'll come to that later. 

this was the summer party we had in school as part of the marketing course that my seniors had to do. it was by the pool. makan all you want and enjoy the blasting music. in fact, this was the day when i get to know more people from all races and nationalities. i was so hideous and chubby!! @@

one thing that is most significant in every year is a thing that we could celebrate many many times - birthdays! we celebrated here and there. even for the korean, we celebrated in a korean restaurant. damn thoughtful. only this year, i celebrated myself as all of my close ones are not around anymore. but these group of friends i have, they have good memory of birth dates! every one is not forgotten. even though mine was during the semester break, they celebrated earlier.

i hosted events too. with nothing in hand, i can just crap out of nowhere but still, im asked to host again and again. tiring but well, for the fun of it heh.

we have classes out of the school territory as well. we went to kl to visit the children for chemistry subject, which i do not see any relations to it until today, and to sushi king to learn how to make sushi. assignment purposes but fun! i wasn't dreadful to go for classes sometimes due to the fun i will get!

we have fun in classes too, of course. from building bear from dismantled pieces, to camwhoring in the science lab and dressing your partner with newspapers. its lame but at least, we did not use books and notes all the time! if you ask me, i can remember the fun things we did in class but not what i studied in class through paper and pen. we even had radio advertisement presentation, dancing with lecturer, eating etiquette, music appreciation by bringing your kualis and senduk to make music. my three and a half years ain't so wasted.

we hang out in between classes while waiting for another. and usually, we go to the old jusco. even the microwave can fascinate us. am i crazy at that time? hahaha fikiran budak yang berumur 19. we hang out really a lottt. we hang out in the room sometimes. just to relax, drink coffee, toilet and take a nap. my second home.

we even went to eddie's house, our IT guy from the college's management, for BBQ night. BBQ chicken, sausages, sweet potatoes and what-nots that we can find the supermarket and the BBQ the shit out of them. some of it really turned out delicious. some of them, i'd rather not eat because im afraid i'll get cancer at the end of the day because it was too burnt!

i had an american classmate, tom! he was so funny and was a great companion. he's the 'father' to all of us. yes, we played family in tertiary education stage. it must be crazyyyy!

the college had such an event called the Mr and Mrs PIC too. so lame but well, for assignments sake again. i remembered that we did not have food on our table, so we went to McD with this dress code. haha that's dora there beside me who used her shoes to photobomb the picture.

this is one CNY event that i was quite scared. the lion was so damn near and it was damn loud and noisy with the clanging of the cymbals and the drums. but it was my first time that i was able to watch them perform upclose. usually, i do not watch all these performances.

this was my most fun subject, advertising. a troy subject taught by dr o. we went to the local newspaper production site and also we made an advertisement for our assignment! no written assignment or whatsoever.

only at this stage of my life, i experienced vegetarian food because of my vegetarian friends i have. it was not that awful but it was edible. im alright with vegetables but i don't see myself eating vegetable only all my life. i will die due to starvation of meat. haha. does this even make sense?

this is one thing that i will never forget, travelling with my friends in indonesia during the summer break! oh god. why my hair looks perfect here? i want that hairrrr. :( but oh well, this trip was fun and am going again, with the family this time. and maybe another one next year. we'll see. it was fun at the tangkuban parahu, the ranch and jakarta shopping! if only i had all the money in the world like gwen stefani says. 

finally, all the graduation events and their night farewell makan. such a bliss to celebrate with them for their achievements so far. glad to able to share their happiness and relief for their great results. mine is coming soon! :D

looking back at the first few pictures i had during the first few days at college, i looked like a omplete nerd and dork! but thank god for cleo and youtube gurus that i have slowly improved on my appearance. hahaha. but i need my hair back. :'(

but ever since i was done with my studies, i kept falling down. argh! two days consecutively some more. embarrassed!! and in both days, i fell on my heels. hence, the broken foot, unfit for badminton, which is why im free!

so far, im not complaining besides my accidents. 21 yet fall down. omg. oh well, im enjoying my days so far. watching movies and dramas.

the freedom is here! but i shall not forget to begin on my resume. :x

till then, x

Inhale

Two weeks of torture. Day and night living in the class facing the screen. So unglamour with the specs and bare face.

If apply eyeliner, the eyeliner will stick on the case study. I only went out with this face to church now. Sadddd.

Facing the screen with movies and facebook is fine with me but ebook and word doc. Worst of all, 12 - 13 hours in the lab. Aiyo!

These few weeks, i told myself many times like im going to die. "I think i'm dying." With all the workload, how could you be so happy?? Hard work better pay off! Days with redbull, fast food, BASKIN ROBBINS!, row six.. You name it, we both have ate it. Just returned from starbucks after a looong day there. My hard work from the intensed gym + badminton combo yesterday is quite good with all the aches and pains now. Persevere!!

But despite these semester of havoc, cherene taught me a lot! Tips and tricks. Aigh bodohnya aku. Nak graduate baru dapat tahu shortcuts.

Still in the midst of work even though one paper is off. That paper damn sucks. Sheesh.

But well, deepavali's tomorrow! Time to put on the punjabi and get on the dhoom!!

I need to chant/remind/tell myself "ONE MORE MONTH ONE MORE MONTH. YOU CAN MAKE IT."

ps: dig these - new heights and travis garland!

Of Conference, Sisters and Fun

october's coming to an end and the beginning of my FINAL and LAST important subject today, i can say, i blasted my october!! it was great with bob fitts and sidney mohede in the house. 3 days. day and night. but i just went for sidney's night but all 3 days' morning session.

during the tea break in the morning, we spend time doing absolutely nothing, collecting my bingo chips on ipad app, seeing true worshippers and bob fitts' albums and bought favor, seeing people (being kepo).

i heard that bob fitts' night session wasnt that packed like sidney's. we had to stand at the backkkkk to line up. nevertheless, my seating was great with my cousin.

we queued like this for about 1 hour! it was massive! about 2k plus of people. FULL HOUSE. it was quite warm with the whole congregation jumping and dancing and moving around. my feet were aching. but i took out my shoes and enjoyed the whole session through and through.

and the concert started a few minutes after. wheee. the knowing you conference was the bomb. never before a 2 hour concert with sidney mohede felt like 2 hour. instead, it was like 30 mins and we asked for more! haha but he wanted ramly burger and to go home so badly. after the gangnam style in the middle of praise, it was fun! he sang most of the songs from the favor album. im so blessed in this conference.

but i did not attend bob fitts' night session. hehe. i felt sick like crazy because i ate late dinner. worst night i've ever had. i think so far, in 10 times, 8 times my system has broke down when im in kl. only kl but not singapore. ish. but probably was too caught up in shopping la.

*smirk*

well, overall, i had a great october!

October Excite!

Just done with Knowing You conference with Sidney Mohede and Bob Fitts in DUMC for 3 days straight. Was really blessed and restored through and through.

I just randomly enter a simple password which i didnt think it'll get me through the wifi but i did! *iamagenius* bus is super late! Hence, no badminton sunday today. *yawns* Guess i have to stay here alone for another hour or so. :(

Will blog more tonight. See u babies!!

Fighting Sleep?

Damn it. Is it the old age syndrome or what im having these past few weeks? I've always been waking up in the middle of the night, go to the loo and back to bed! Most incredible consequence is, feeling more tired than ever in the day.

And more concealers in the day too as if in going for war. War with myself. Cant sleep early at night but waking up in the wee hours of the morning and sleeping back? Oh dear.

Speaking of old age, my back sores if i sit too long!! Damn nenek ever. And im just like what. 21! Well, this sucks when i reach my 20s. But im gonna learn to love myself even more!

I have to.

Poor Baby

My fatty was and is sick sine 3 days ago. And just today, also my first time driving the monster truck out of bukit beruang, we brought her to the vet.

She's so fat that even people thinks that she is pregnant. Lol. Self-control method of eating doesnt really help much i guess? Well, she's better as of now. She likes the breeze when she was in the car, which of course attracted a lot of attention of other drivers and passengers. No biggie. We just dont wanna dirty the interior of the car.

At 4 years old, this fatty of mine will begin taking her yearly jabs. Ooops. So far, she was doing fine until lately. Purging and pooping blood. But hopefully all is well by monday.

And yes, we call her many pet names though her name is nestum. Puppy la, fatty, baby, 'stum, gemuk etc.

Your Love

just close your eyes and listen to this. perfect for my friday afternoon. makes me feel so thankful that the lord accepts us as we are. he's healing my heart. one heartbeat at a time.

his love is always so much better than life.

can't wait to dance for him this november (if i am able to). 

My Asian Eyes

This picture got me attention in church! Friends teased me of the chinese eyes i have. Damn eyes!! "One line only!" Haha well, im proud of what i have. :D One did an impersonation of my eyes while walking. Awesome friends that made me laugh la. Another was pretending to search for my eyes.

Well, looking at the positive side, life can be good!

I guess i have to take pictures like this then. Soooo unnatural and scary!

Imagine how would my convo pic be. Hahaha the chansellor will get a heart attack and might die on the spot. What more, walking with wide eyes open.

The Broken Heartbeat

was so screwed up with things last month until, i was so confident that my passport's gonna expire this november 2012! i even went to the immigration office and ALMOST did a new one. fml rm300 can be gone in a split second baby.

went to the counter and the officer asked if i am going to study abroad. was so confused, i said, no. im going to singapore. damn it. i even went to do a new passport picture! i should punch myself in the face. filled in the form. and waited for 10 minutes.

at the counter inside the office, the officer asked me the same thing! studying abroad? i said, no. im going for a holiday in singapore. and then... miss.... your passport expiring next year, you know? you sure you wanna do a new one? GASP! next year? i thought it was nov 2012! *self punch 20394823956925* sooo you want to cancel this transaction or continue doing a new one?

of course cancel lah! dumb ass me.

i still have that granny syndrome somewhere in my head.

Hello, October

And i'm left with 2 more months of dealing with books, pens, papers etc.

I'll make all this shit im going through from shitty to awesome! In fact, it makes me happy to know the result though. (Just like my hair :P) What you've put so much effort in, you just cannot wait for the results. Yes, we shall make it to december!

But there's one thing that i cannot do. Remembering names. Aiyo. They can remember my name but i cant even remember theirs. D: sufferrrr. How to enter into the working world? *punches self*

But hard times for me are making me to be stronger. What doesnt kill you really makes you stronger.

I'm coming to the light. Wait for meeee!

Oh Happy Day

Whole morning spent with my dear friend in old town eating, drinking, typing, laughing and talking felt so good! In fact, we killed 2 birds with one stone. Assignment and project done!

Who would've thought huh? A burden lifted till next week!

Anyway, if you people havent watch Always You by yomyomf in youtube, you should! I shed some tears while watching the series. Waiting for motherlover!! Fun fun!

September is ending. Quickly come, december! Program evaluation is already done! Yipeeeee!

On My Way

to greatness!

going to bring my assignments to an end in order to welcome dr jana's! i can tell her by then, "bring it on, baby!" i know we can mess with dr. :p

headphones up. assignments facing me. christian music are onnnn. speed typing. what a joy to do assignment.

now im taking a break.

just wanting to share something that motivated me so much. this was written by a 90 year old.
                                                          
1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short not to enjoy it.
4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and family will.
5. Don’t buy stuff you don’t need.
6. You don’t have to win every argument. Stay true to yourself.
7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.
8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for things that matter.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.
12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye… But don’t worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful.  Clutter weighs you down in many ways.
18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It’s never too late to be happy.  But it’s all up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Overprepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words, ‘In five years, will this matter?’
27. Always choose Life.
28. Forgive but don’t forget.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give Time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.
35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’dgrab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. Accept what you already have, not what you think you need.
42. The best is yet to come…
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

                                                          

when i've finished reading, i felt sooo comforted and relieved. my life is not fair but it's still good. i thank god for that. i thank god for the good and bad things that have happened to me. ahhh! and im eccentric! i LOVE purple and i WEAR purple! :D all the 45 points are meaningful. 

speaking of meaningful, i'll have a great time exploring the bible soon! passion podcast are waiting for me. greatness is on the way. must remember jubilee jubilee. don't keep things that are not yours to hold. instead, give it to God and let Him handle. im learning. yesterday's sermon striked me already. x.x 

exciting things will happen in october for me! 

Functional shopping.

Weekend shopping. Most greatest shop i've ever done - find organizers! All thanks to pinterest. Why didnt I thought of it long ago??? But now, i could wake up to my babies and just smile at them.

So what i've got are just ice cube trays and s-hooks. Effortless and easy, just do the transfer!

Have a great Sunday! *runs to church!*

Ps. Breaking hearts doesnt make you a man. Keeping one, knowing that its fragile DOES make you a man.

Sit Staring

whole day, alone at home, i've been spending my time with this marketing plan. its so dreadfullllll. D: what more, international management assignment. dear dr bcs, if you ever stumble upon this, can i just write, "i have never thought of making my business go international. ever. no modal." hahaha i will die. he will make my graduation to not happen for me!

and best of all, im banee, girl version of bane. my voice! its so struck down to the ground. it has to try to swim up and that's what we call, greatness. emotionally, physically and mentally. i guess it's life for me. it can be unfair. it can be fair. depending on how we just look at life.

(writing this is much better than marketing planning!!)

however, on the other hand, i've been on pinterest!

its so addictive and useful! this is my 'recess' from my marketing planning assignment. :D guilty but happy! seeing cute things and ideas lifts up my mood from getting all down and sick.

ps. paloma faith is my current music favourite! :D
pps. i think i've made my parents tired from listening to pink's blow me. oops.