Take a Breather

all i could say now is it was as though i was dreaming in reality. i thought i was ready for it to accept it with open arms with full of relief but then it is not. it didnt work that way. instead, i was left alone dreaming about it. it was as though it was just yesterday that we put our arms on each other, having the time of our lives.

but now its like this. damn. it was hard for me to wake up to reality this morning. i couldnt get the hang of being alone again. it felt that i was really missing something. this whole thing was something that i wanted when i was on the blow but it is not what i want when i am sober. it was so close yet so far. grrrr.

but all i could do is just to change for my future. i cant a thing about my past. it has happened. there's nothing that i can do about it. all in all, thank god that it happened. praise him for this.

it takes time to heal but then we'll see about it. its really hard to consume but thanks for parents and friends who are here for me. things will not be the same again. i will not be the same again. i will change for the better.

my world for the week? be a better person. be the better daughter. be the better friend.

thanks for the lesson. :)